YOURTURN

FINAL NOVEMBER UPDATE: "SEE YOU SPACE COWBOY."

This December I will be dealing with the fact that I have been receiving SSI (i.e. permanent disability) for 12 years. With 11 of those 12 years finding this to be an issue, both personally and as a hobbyist.

Let me explain.

Out of every franchise, theme, etc. I have attempted to collect... Star Wars was the only franchise I felt the most comfortable collecting. Simply because my parents worked hard to get me almost all of the original figures, and some other stuff tied to it, from late 1981 to the 1985.

My feeling is that if I talked about my collecting goals in mid-2011, I would have either built a MOC collection surrounding that... Or... Had been a member of NintendoAge prior to my arrival in 2019. And that a lot of the issues, and damage, I did face elsewhere would have not happened.

Which is not a guarantee since my variation of Asperger's/Autism had made me an easy target elsewhere.

So instead of just leaving (again) on terms that were tied to red flags, I need to leave just because my return to Tokyo (injuries and all) is that my "graded collection" goals work better elsewhere. At a forum where graded collectibles, regardless of age and rarity, make sense to the majority of said collectors.

Which is why I am bowing out, with plans to only offer an update if going for a graded MOC Star Wars collection (of any kind) does give me the results I have been aiming for since 2011.

With me also planning to use this time to finish Dark Souls, choose who gets my "Surprise Santa" gift, and hopefully start 2024 ending this accursed issue before I turn 50 (I'm 47, BTW).

So... With that said... Happy holidays.

"MINOR" (for many) COLLECTING UPDATE: UNDONE.

Last update since I have realized that I have a lot of FUN (read: lots of games and merch) updates I cannot get myself to post. So I'll address the Secret Santa scenario and why I feel broken:

- I said that lost my cat to old age.
FACT: I had my cat from the time she was 10 weeks old to the day she passed the 18 year mark. At the end I had a family member not making the anxiety easy on me, and I ended up talking about my cat's endgame during the time she ended up dying. After that some have told me that I should just get another cat. In the end I felt that some of you guys would be sympathetic, which made me want to surprise those who did with a "thank you" themed Christmas gift.

- I also said that I was in a car accident shortly after I got it paid off.
FACT: This shook me up, but I finally ended up getting an EV. I do not do road trips, and my hope was to put any gas money into the rebuilding of my hobby... Which turned out to be sealed/graded video game stuff while I was trying to avoid it during my return to Tokyo.

- I also listed a few bad things that I had experienced in Japan.
FACT: I also bought both a brand new Switch OLED and a brand new Japan exclusive, Nintendo produced Tears of the Kingdom pro controller for less than what a standard Switch costs in NA. I also ended up making the best out of every bad situation, down to the fact that I had decided it was time to rethink my past decisions. Just like I did when I was doing everything ranging from me rebuilding my collection to X'mas shopping.

- I also said none of that was a reason for me to not do the Secret Santa bit. Because in the end, I also said that my year was a "country music song" and not an excuse to snub you guys.
FACT: That reference is tied to the old joke that every time I guy loses something, a country music song is born. Or do I need to have a dog, a truck, a wife, and have all three run away with each other?

- What I said that had me not do the Secret Santa was the following: I would aim to get the chosen member the perfect gift, get lost to the point I went from being in California to the French-Canadian portion of Canada, me experiencing the French guard scene from Monty Python and the Holy Grail, and ultimately find out that some punk kid made headlines by making money after they subbed it to Wata for a profit.
FACT: I try too hard to buy gifts for people I have never met, and had a few issues that made me not be successful in the end. Plus, my reason for not doing it was a... Wait for it... A satire.

In the end I was told something that sums up as "Asking you to edit or delete your post is not an option for us." and "Here are things we assume you know nothing about." Despite the fact that I have TRIED to be a member here since MAY 18, 2020.

I'm done. No clue what that means, but I can say that I miss NintendoAge. 

For those who bother to read what I say...

I will never have neither the youth, money, or benefits of being like any of you. Because everything tied to both my past and present dictate that to be the truth. Which is fine since I have found that the benefit of having Asperger's (Autism in North America) helps make your collections an interesting topic to me.

Plus... I ended up joining NA because I made the mistake in 2011 where I started to focus on the idea of collecting Transformers instead of video games. My experience with the Transformers fandom was mostly toxic, but I will just say that the second forum I had attended was the very definition of that word.

And... I ended up joining VGS because NA helped solidify my love of VGA graded NES titles. But I also quit two times because the way others started to act was, by far, different than how things were in NA. With nobody caring that their actions and behavior can have negative impacts on those they do not know.

So why am I here? And why I am writing this? It goes back to my disability and the fact it keeps me from having a healthy social life. So despite the fact that I can compare members, evets, etc. to every existing forum I had attended... I need some type of social interaction that is not some type of AI (as proven to me in Japan).

Thus why I am saying this after many of you made claims about me that did harm me. With hopes that by saying this both you and those you mention this to will realize that as bad as things can be for me... A lot of the indirect topics and comments tied to you guys have greatly helped me in the end.

Which does not mean I expect 2024 to be better for me. Or you guys to magically become my friends. But rather me saying thank you for not being those who have helped make my life be this complicated/bad. 

So...

This is the gamer/collector, with Asperger's (currently 'Autism' in North America), that used to go by the name "FenrirZero" on this site. With me using my original NintendoAge name during my brief tenure there.

And to skip the drama that has me looking for an active video game forum that allows me to feel like I am part of a community... Here are my purchases (after I sold all but my Xbox Series S):

1: Nintendo Switch OLED (*NEW*)

2: Breath of the Wild + Expansion Pass (*NEW*)

3: Breath of the Wild (*NEW*) <-( JPN-2 variant)

4: Tears of the Kingdom (*NEW*)

5: Game & Watch: Zelda (*NEW*)

5: Dream Island/Link's Awakening (*NEW*)

6: Nintendo's (not Hori's) TotK pro controller (*NEW*)

PLUS...

7: Dragon Quest VI ("NEW")

AND (EDITED/UPDATED) THE FOLLOWING:

8: Nintendo Classic Mini: Super Famicom (*NEW*)

And more… Which I might break down and post since I cannot find a forum that is similar to NA.

With that said... "Love and peace" with me hoping this will lead to somebody giving me a good enough reason to return. (^o^)v

Just a minor update:

January 1, 2023 is the 10th anniversary when I decided to start a business in Japan. With no results to show outside the realm of me designing something with an RPG-like theme to it. So if I do decide to pop back in it'll be tied to this.

With that said... I have sold the last video game I owned (Dragon Quest VII (PSone Books); CAS 85) to finance another collection I am rebuilding. A part of me will miss collecting that series, but I have to admit that I prefer vintage looking collectibles. Mainly graded MOC Star Wars figures. While I also realize that being a video game collector is more fun in Japan. (Same with being a fan in general, ironically.)

That is all I will say. I came here not to say this, but to find any pics that were saved before my PC wiped itself clean. But felt like a proper update was needed when I realized that only one pic was saved (here).

May the Force (or farts) be with you.

TO THOSE READING THIS,

I am not just retiring from collecting video games, but also the goals I have established in 2011.

These goals have cost me thousands of dollars, atop of years of trying to turn it into a reality. Not because I "failed to understand" anybody. In reality, I like knowing who people are. But rather because I have given up on being understood. Which is why my business goals and engagement ended up being failures.

In the end I thank a lot of you guys for making me feel welcomed here. But realistically? The issue here is that I am in my 40s, not living my best life, and always worried that anything I say will offend one of you guys. Which is why I will return to answer any PMs, but not much else.

Because until I have my business started, have a hobby I feel comfortable doing, and live in a portion of Japan (long story) that gives me the distractions I need... The real me will never appear. Which in one that has me turn my nickname (origin is a long story) into something fun.

Until then... SEE YOU SPACE COWBOYS...

- "Zero" (aka FenrirZero)

P.S. I am selling ALL of my games. Including my Switch titles.